Friday, January 9, 2015

Three years ago today....

It seems like yesterday that my first stroke happened. It has been three years ago today.

I mark the days since my strokes differently now. It used to be days. Then months. Now years.

I could use my time like this Pink Floyd sang, "Ticking away the moments that make up a dull day. Fritter and waste the hours in an off-hand way."

Is that what I have been doing? I do not think so.

I cannot be bored. I need to be useful and have a purpose. I need to be busy!

However, my body and mind have limitations.

On Christmas Eve, I had a "incident." Neurologists call those incident a "brain attack." Nice euphemism until it is YOUR brain. 

Before Christmas, I had some headaches and it was compounded with being dizzy, minor chest pains, and a sore left wrist. Normally, I would not think about this. However, given my history, I told my wife. Then we called my neurologist.

Back to the St. Al's ER! Great.....

After several hours, the tests were in. I am fine.

Since that time, my neurologist suggested I cut down on my activities. "Schedule your board meetings in the morning and be done about Noon."
That is not realistic for many reasons. 

I am just one person. I cannot expected the other people to make concessions for me. 

And second, I will not give in to my strokes. I will continue to beat the expectations for stroke and seizures survivors. 

I will live my life like another Pink Floyd song: "The Great Gig in the Sky:"

"And I am not frightened of dying, any time will do, I don't mind. Why should I be frightened of dying? There's no reason for it, you've gotta go sometime." 

Thursday, January 1, 2015

Helen Keller and New Year's Resolutions

2015. A new year. 

It is hard to believe. I am 53 years old. It has almost been three years since my two strokes. I have been doing therapy ever since.

I never thought my life would be like this. But, it is what it is.

When I feel sorry for myself, I often think of Helen Keller. She overcame so much adversity. She said, “Your success and happiness lies in you. Resolve to keep happy, and your joy and you shall form an invincible host against difficulties.”

Great advice. For my New Year’s resolutions, I try to live up to her example.

Here are my resolutions:

·       Make a difference in the world.

·       Be happy.

·       Be grateful.

·       Do not think of thing that I cannot change.  

·       Live for today.

·       Everyday is a blessing and a gift.

·       Concentrate on my family.

Lofty goals, but I will try.

I will also to the obligatory goals of trying to be healthier and blogging every week. I will continue striving to overcome my strokes and the aftereffects.

Helen Keller also wrote, “Self-pity is our worst enemy and if we yield to it, we can never do anything wise in this world.”

Happy New Year!