It is hard
to believe that my strokes happened almost two and a half years ago. Sometimes,
it is a distant reality. However, most of the time, this is a vivid and startling
reality even now. When I wake up in the morning, I have to realize that this is
NOT a dream.
So, how am I
doing? It depends. I continue to be grateful for my recovery. Every day, I know
that it could have been so much worse. On the other hand, I still have
invisible deficits.
I
participate in many stroke support groups because, until you have a stroke, no
one can really understand the ramifications of strokes, recovery, and deficits.
The National
Heart, Lung, and Blood Institute have insightful information about “Life After
a Stroke.” Their website is http://www.nhlbi.nih.gov/health/health-topics/topics/stroke/lifeafter.html
The intro
says “The time it takes to recover from a stroke varies—it can take
weeks, months, or even years. Some people recover fully, while others have
long-term or lifelong disabilities.
Ongoing care, rehabilitation, and emotional support can help
you recover and may even help prevent another stroke.
If you’ve had a stroke, you’re at risk of having another
one. Know the warning signs of a stroke and
transient ischemic attack (TIA) and what to do if they occur. Call 9–1–1 as
soon as symptoms start.
Do not drive to the hospital or let someone else drive you.
Call an ambulance so that medical personnel can begin life-saving treatment on
the way to the emergency room. During a stroke, every minute counts.”
For me, here are some
of the issues I confront everyday:
“Medicines to help you recover from a stroke or control your stroke risk
factors.” I take medications to control stroke and seizure risk factors.
“Need to take anticoagulants, also called blood thinners. These
medicines prevent blood clots from getting larger and keep new clots from
forming.” I take blood thinners.
“Easy bruising.” I bruise so easily now.
“Trouble communicating after a stroke. You may not be able to
find the right words, put complete sentences together, or put words together in
a way that makes sense.” My biggest frustration is aphasia. Aphasia is an
impairment of language, affecting the
production or comprehension of speech and the ability to read or write. To
understand aphasia, here are Aphasia Simulations that are
helpful: http://aphasiacorner.com//aphasia-simulations/
“A stroke may affect only one side of the
body or part of one side. It can cause paralysis (an inability to move) or
muscle weakness, which can put you at risk for falling.” My right arm was paralyzed for a time, but I
am lucky that it got better. However, I still have issues with balance
sometimes and my right peripheral vision is affected. So depth perception is an
issue.
“After a stroke, you may have changes in your behavior or
judgment. For example, your mood may change quickly. Because of these and other
changes, you may feel scared, anxious, and depressed. Recovering from a stroke
can be slow and frustrating.” Really? Of course this is awful for the
most part. Stroke survivors would love to get their lives back. However, life is
not fair, and we have to make the most of life though it is different.
Part of my therapy and my “outlet” for frustration is my
blog. I try to make a difference though I realize sometimes it is far too personal.
It is odd that I am a private person, however, it seems that a blog is anonymous
which is ridiculous! In the blog sphere,
my blog is forever and NOT anonymous.
I will continue blogging for my sanity and, hopefully to help
other people.
For those who are reading my blog, who are you? Why are you interested? Where are you from? I would love to know. However, I understand that concept of "Anonymous Blogsphere!"
Comments
I hope you know that I read your blog and really enjoy it. You have come so far it is amazing. I can never imagine what you must go through knowing what you have lost. Just remember that I am one proud older (somewhat shorter)brother and I love you very much.
Dirk
I've been reading your blog for a couple of months now and I have been moved and inspired by your continuing story. Most people wouldn't have the strength and courage to outwardly document and share their successes and struggles. I know that even though there may be tough days ahead for you and your family, be confident in knowing that this is all part of a bigger plan for your life - instilling hope and purpose in others. You already have!
I will continue to offer my thoughts and prayers for you and your family - whatever the future holds. I've been fortunate to get to know your goofy brothers (yes I'm being generous in that assessment . . . hehe) Seriously though, I don't think that there is anything random in that either.
Be well bud, and keep the faith!
Pat Duffel
Cousin Karen